I’m just drinking coffee now trying to mentally prepare for the day... Mike is still sleeping. I have to take Bitzi out for a little walk before I get ready to start work online. I’m just going to do my best, try to shine and enjoy the kids as much as I can. On the 19th I’m driving to Canton & Lewistown to deliver Christmas presents. That’s not so far away. I’ll live on that until I go.
Monday, December 7
6:24. I’ve been up an hour. I’m subbing for an elementary general music teacher until Jan.15 when she returns from maternity leave. This morning I have five fourth grade Zoom classes back-to-back. This afternoon I have five kindergarten classes. It’s fast and furious for 30- minute classes. When we return from winter break in January the kids are set to return to school my last week working.
Saturday, November 28
8:07 am Saturday
The sun is shining but it’s still brisk out there. I just took Bitzi for a walk to the top of the hill park across the street. Mikes Tahoe on our driveway was covered in frost. I wore my Willy pile jacket, gloves, furry hat and neck warmer. Bitzi wore her pink sparkle sweater. Bitzi has a grooming appointment at 12:30 and then we’re going over to my MIL’s in St. Charles.
We had a simple quiet Thanksgiving. The roasted chicken was good. I boiled the chicken carcass yesterday and deboned it and put the broth and meat in two containers for the freezer. We cleaned up the garage yesterday and got out the Christmas decorations. I decided we would just go with our little tabletop tree this year. We gave our bigger tree and a bunch of stuff to Goodwill. We’re getting the kitchen cabinets painted this week and other work done in the kitchen. Then we’re getting new floors put in so didn’t want a bunch of Christmas stuff put up to have to move. We just have a small house now. Today I need to go through two more bags of Christmas lights and see which ones work and put them up outside. I LOVE my new white quartz kitchen counters! It makes a huge difference for my low vision. I know it sounds silly but I’m filled with such joy getting that done.
There are two new grand babies on the way. That will make nine. Life has a way of going forward despite pandemics and political unrest and an overall shitty year. I guess there is always hope and beauty in life if you notice it. I’m supposed to sub for a music teacher on maternity leave in D300 but their HR has not gotten back to me after I went in to fingerprint. I’m sure it’s the Covid and Thanksgiving delay. I don’t really even want to do it now. I’m that apathetic. I’m enjoying staying home and numerous daily walks.
Tuesday, October 13
I met an old friend for lunch today. It had been over a year since I’d seen her. It was good to catch up. I also stopped to see another old friend in Peoria on my way home Sunday. I had never seen her new
house. I felt sweaty and cruddy from traveling and driving that day. It was good to catch up.
I have to go meet with the lady about tending her two Tibetan spaniels for the next two weeks starting Thursday. I’ll have to go over to her house four times a day and let them out and tend them.
Thursday I also have to go to the McHenry county ROE in Woodstock and get fingerprinted for my criminal background check so I can be on the sub list for McHenry County and Friday I have to attend a 2-3 hour orientation to sub for Huntley school district. I’m not still even sure I want to but I do want to have options and keep contributing to my IRA so......
Tomorrow we’re having some rooms painted and the bedroom closet attic fixed so we can put luggage up there and the living room TV mounted on a wall bracket and some garage lights added.
Tuesday, September 29
I’m drinking my first cup of coffee. I’ve been drinking less coffee lately because I’ve been chugging water immediately after getting up in the morning. It helps me feel more awake and energized and it’s helping my gut work better.
I’m going to take Bitzi for a walk in a little while and then I’m driving to Aurora to the Premium outlet mall and going to the Columbia store to buy the boys jackets with a coupon before it expires. Then once I’m home I’m going over to Meadowview Lodge to work out on the weight machines. Then another walk.
Tonight is the first presidential debate. Last night and Sunday night we watched Comey Rule on Showtime and the latest episode of The Circus.
Tomorrow morning I’m going to the Elgin DMV to renew my license and get a Real ID. I have to take a vision test so I’m a bit nervous. You only have to have one eye pass. I think my eyes are as good as five years ago when I passed the last test. Fingers crossed.
We had another appointment yesterday afternoon to go through more of my stuff and sign more papers. It’s such a pain in the ass. Everything’s getting rolled into one IRA with conservative investments until after the election bullshit is over and then I’ll go more aggressive.
I made potato soup yesterday and it turned out really good and hearty. I love soup.
8:53 I just went on a fast 1.5 milk walk. It’s brisk out there! My fingers and face are cold now. I’ve been exercising a lot more since quarantine, getting a puppy and retiring. Hurray!
I’m reading Mary Trump’s Too Much and Never Enough.
Saturday, September 12
Every day when I get up I have to mentally slap myself and not sink into gloom and depression. Every morning I still have to remind myself I’m still alive and have much to be grateful for. I have to constantly nudge myself away from sliding into worry and dread and dark thoughts. I’m a person who expects the worst doom to happen and then I prepare so I’m ready. In my life I’ve been through some pretty awful dark horrible flaming shit and I never want to go back there but it’s always possible. You always have to keep your antennas up to watch out for monsters and you have to make yourself intentionally think GOOD thoughts all day every day. Plus my batshit crazy head always has this inner snarky,cynical, sarcastic, bitchy voice commenting about everything and I’m always trying to tamp her down and remain outwardly pleasant and polite. If you think good thoughts, good things will come to you. If you show kindness to others, kindness will be shown to you. If you are generous to others, you will receive generosity. Life is an echo. It’s the law of attraction. You will attract the energy you radiate.
It’s been gloomy and raining for days now. We’re going over to my stepson and daughter-in-laws for their baby gender reveal party ( that’s “a thing” now with millennials.....) and I’m uncomfortable about going. Due to a sonogram Thursday the doctor identified a mass in the embryo’s chest and is pretty sure it’s some congenital defect called C-PAM. So they’re going to wait to see if it resolves on it’s own or the baby may need surgery immediately upon birth. I can’t imagine why they’re going ahead with the party. I feel so bad for them and don’t know what to say. Plus my husbands ex will be there and she is always loud obnoxious and attention getting. I always feel very strained being around her. I’ve got to just relax, take a deep breath and pull up my big girl panties and slap on a friendly, happy face. I know I had one here somewhere.....
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