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Friday, July 31

A new day


I’m getting my coffee in me so I can drive down the tollway on I-90 to the Elgin exit to the dermatologist for my skin scan.

I was just rereading yesterday’s post and all the mistakes and typos!

I get interrupted or distracted while typing with one finger on my iPad. MUST proofread before hitting publish!

9:46 pm
The dermatologist took five tissue samples off me ( wrist, Areola, neck, shoulder, back) to biopsy for skin cancer and froze a spot off just under my right eye and a wart off my back. I should get the pathology results in a week. It is what it is.

I got the kids. We went shopping, to the park, to the garden and to the pickleball courts. Tomorrow morning they’re going to pull weeds for me.

 Mike is in a terrible mood. Five of his sports staff have been reassigned to news so there are only eight people remaining in the sports department. 

Thursday, July 30

Rise Up

I’m listening to Billy Joel River of Dreams on my big Bluetooth speaker. Bitzi is in her pen in the kitchen biting her squeakie toy and rattling around. I just had her outside with me picking a bouquet of flowers. She’s been outside with me many times today. She’s lost a few of her front baby teeth and is closing in on five pounds. 
Mike is back in his office. His company offered another round of buyouts but also is probably going to have to just lay people off. I tried as tactfully as I could to get him to consider taking the buyout but no....

I’m supposed to go swim at 3:45 but am feeling kind of too tired. Tomorrow I’m driving to Lacon and bringing home four of my grandchildren to stay ten days. Two granddaughters, two grandsons. Six, eight, ten, thirteen. I’m going to have to come up with ideas to keep them busy. Mike has to work....

I have to go to a dermatology center in the morning for a skin scan ( it’s been a few years. My mother died of melanoma...) and then come home, get Bitzi, drive to Lacon, get the kids and come home. 

Now Blood, Sweat and Tears’ You Make Me So Very Happy is on. I’m playing an old playlist I created on Amazon Prime Music a couple years ago. 

My handicapped sister Vicki is back in the hospital in Peoria for the third time in a month. Today they’re finally doing an upper GI scope to try to figure out what going on. My other sister was exposed to Covid and is quarantining until her test results come back. 

I'm going to go ahead and swim for a while. Maybe it will perk me up a bit. Maybe I'll have a cup of coffee when I get home. 

I worked really hard in the pool with tons of legs lifts, jogging, pumping my arms, stretches, flexes, push-always ( push ups) on the wall. Really brisk good workout. When I got home I took Bitzi out to pee and reclined in my anti gravity lounge chair and watched  the neighbors across the street and allowed my swimsuit under my Hawaiian dress to dry in the breeze. Then I went to take the tote bags out of the backseat in my car ( preparing to transport the kids tomorrow and discovered the boys had spilled a bunch of puppy kibble in the third row seat floor a few weeks ago so it took a while for me to squish back there and get that and I also discovered the lost pink leash, a puppy chew chicken teething ring AND the seat belt for the middle of the second row that I’ve never been un able to locate since I bought the car last fall!

Mike’s boss just told him when I was gone swimming that with the people taking the buyouts the company is still going to have to let a few people go but Mike and all his sports staff people should be safe. But they may need a couple sports people to cover other things besides sports so Mike was SO relieved to hear that none of his people are being cut. His boss did say, however, that he is not the absolute final decision maker so there’s still a slight danger. Mike wants to work a few more years and loves his job. I hate to see him fret about this stuff.

We got an estimate for luxury vinyl plank flooring through our entryway, dining room, living room and kitchen to go over the ceramic tile and linoleum and take out the 21 year old living room cream colored carpet. I’m so excited! And we’re going to update the kitchen! 

Thursday, July 16

Down in the back

3:04 Thursday 7/16/20

I’ve been extra active lately and now am having a bunch of lower back pain today. I canceled my fitness class and swimming today ( we have to sign up for these due to COVID-19 now) and I haven’t been doing much besides sitting around with the lumbar wedge behind my lower back. I did take Bitzi for a walk to the park and returned something to Kohl’s though.

Since I’ve been keeping so busy I haven’t posted very much. I’m trying not to dwell on my feelings and just go. It’s kind of weird just siting here with the lumbar cushion vibrating, looking at my Kindle app and all the books I have that I haven’t read yet.
It’s weird now. I don’t know what I’m “ supposed” to do now that I’m retired and Mike isn’t. I want to do everything and I want to do nothing. Is that weird?

Saturday, July 11

Knee jerk

5:07pm.  It’s been a good day so far. I have my knee brace on- it’s been hurting again and feeling weird. Mike is off playing golf down by Henry, IL with men from his family.  I’ve been messing with the dog most of the day. I went out to the garden twice and used the hoe a bit. Using the hoe chopping the weeds wears me out so badly in the heat.
The last two days I went to our indoor pool and did a whole bunch of exercises and today I’m pretty tired, slow and sore. There are only so many time slots limited to ten people at a time that can use the indoor pool. One of the outdoor pools is open but I haven’t been yet. 

Friday, July 10

Thank the great spirit it’s Friday

7:56 am   I’ve been up for a couple hours. It stormed and poured rain all night. I went to step out on the back patio to take Bitzi out for her morning pee to discover a big pile of raccoon poop on the patio a step away from the door. Bitzi immediately zoomed over there to inspect it and I quickly kicked it in the grass so she couldn’t get it. The nerve of those bastards taking a shit right by my back door! I have NO food or seed back there to draw them. Weeks ago I got rid of my hummingbird feeders because they kept sucking all the nectar out. 

In a few minutes I’m going over to Goodwill and Aldi. I have a pool time at 3:45 for an hour. We have to sign up and distance now. I got a great workout yesterday. 

Thursday, July 9

The heat is on

I haven’t really posted or written much in a while. I want to say there’s been too much going on but I’m not sure that is quite accurate. I haven’t been sure what to say. Through this whole pandemic clusterf*ck I feel like I’ve been under water holding my breath waiting for it to be over so I could come to the surface sunlight and all would be well. The boogie man would be gone. Donald Trump would be gone. The corona virus would be gone. The political unrest would be gone. Cancer would be gone.

But no.

 Here I am and the shit’s still the same. You can’t be too tired. You can’t deny it or ignore it. You can assume somebody else is going to fix it. You have to take a deep breath, pull up yer britches and keep trudging on through the everyday muck and bile of living in this world. You have to pause and revel in the few and far between sweet spots but don’t ever let yourself expect the sweet spots or take them for granted. Oh no. Because karma is always watching your ungrateful ass and will jump up and kick you in the teeth when you least expect it. 

Be constantly grateful  for every sunrise, every rain drop, every morsel of food. Tomorrow it could all be gone.

This is for you.

Sunday, July 5

Summer slide

3:14 pm

I’ve had a day of tending my outside plants, cleaning, packing and tending Bitzi. I’ve been packing and loading the car. Tomorrow I’m driving to East Peoria and having a sleep over swim party with my daughters and grandkids and then I’m coming back home Tuesday. I’m taking disinfecting wipes and hand sanitizer. I’m careful but I have to live my life. I’m drinking sugar-free lemonade with vodka. I’ve had this bottle of Costco vodka for two years. Trying to use it up. We never drink. 

Saturday, July 4

Independence Day

5:30am Saturday, July 4

Mike just left to play an early golf game with a couple friends. They went last week and are trying to make this a weekly early morning thing.I woke up soon after he got out of bed. This morning I’m going to take the dog out for a walk, go out to the garden to water and come home and watch Hamilton on my iPad on Disney +. Mike doesn’t care for musicals so it’s better for me to watch it without him. He mostly likes to watch cop, detective shows, the food network and Shark Tank. We both like Jeopardy and Real Time with Bill Maher and Anderson Cooper 360.Ive been doing a lot of gardening and my flower beds we created last summer are starting to fill in and look more mature. It takes a lot of watering, weeding, fertilizing, deadheading and transplanting but I get such joy and satisfaction from it. I love picking bouquets from my own garden to give as gifts. 
I’m drinking my first coffee now. Bitzi is still sleeping in her crate and the blinds are drawn. All is quiet aside from gentle bird noises outside. I love the stillness and soft glow of mornings. The news reports are saying the COVID-19 virus numbers are rapidly rising again. It’s seems that this awful plague will never end. 

I have volunteered to be one of three reps from my Sun City neighborhood (#3). I’ve talked to the two outgoing lady reps about it. Mostly my rep slot would include setting up two yearly parties / get together events. It doesn’t seem that it would be difficult, so I said I’d do it. I thought it would be a good way to get more involved in my neighborhood and meet more wouldn’t officially start until October. 

I’m trying to protect myself from getting too overwhelmed and freaked out by life these days. I’m watching less news and unfollowing unfriending people and groups on social media. I don’t want to hear / see / read a bunch of negative ridiculous conservative pro- trump swill. I’m just so tired of it. I’m now living in this 55+ community and there are lots of older ignorant brainless conservative pro-Trump stick up their asses types around here. I have to tread lightly and be good at changing the subject quickly. The zombies walk among us! 

Wednesday, July 1

Gopher hole

8:47am I’m waiting for 9am to come. Then I can sign up for time slots of our indoor pool usage. They’re just opening it up next week. One of the outdoor pools will be open too but it’s a first come deal.

There’s so much stuff going on lately. I’ve been trying my best to block it out and avoid it and slink into my mental cave or gopher hole. A person has to protect themselves and take breaks. I’m doing all I can to stay happy healthy and positive. 

Hello darkness my old friend

It’s 5:55 and I’ve been up for forty minutes. I’ll leave here shortly to drive the mile to our lodge to use the pool and workout. I didn’t g...