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Wednesday, July 21

Delta Dawn

5:48 7/21

I’m awake and sipping coffee in the morning silence I love. There’s a pure, serene freshness about early morning. We’ve had a good time here the last couple days but I’m ready to go home and get my little Bitzi back in my arms. 













Tomorrow I’ll pack up Hennessy’s stuff and clean up the bedroom for Sarah and the boys when they arrive on Sunday. The three boys together are way more to manage than Hennessy has been but their mama is coming. God help her driving up with them. Milo is 11 so he should be a help. Sarah is expecting another baby. The baby planned itself (like all my babies did.) Sometimes life gives you unexpected blessings. We’ll go swimming at the Sun City pool, to the water park in Huntley, fishing, to the new library, maybe to the trampoline park….






3:03pm We’ve been home since about 10:30. Bitzi was so happy to see us! We unpacked, I did three loads of laundry, watered my flowers outside, planted two hostas from Lake Geneva, inflated my new purple exercise ball. I’m going to the chiropractor in a little while then we’re going to the Chinese buffet / hibachi/ sushi place in DeKalb. I’m tired.
China House

Tuesday, July 20

Cocoon

Good morning all. It’s 8:14am. Mike and Hennessy are still sleeping. I planned to take Henna back to the waterpark at 9 when they open today for an hour or so. Tomorrow morning we go home so I want to try to get all the fun stuff in today. There are still two more pools left at this resort that Henna hasn’t been in yet. Her swimming has already improved so much since Monday. She’s a fearless little commando. 
I bought Sarah’s boys Lake Geneva T-shirts yesterday. I’m pretty sure they’ll fit.




















7:58pm Hennessy and I went to the waterpark for a couple hours. We floated on the lazy River a couple different times and went down a water slide. Henna went down slides a ton of times. After that we came back to our room and changed and went shopping at a couple stores. We went swimming in the outdoor pool down the parking lot from our room for about 90 minutes then to another store, then to dinner. I’m super tired now. We’re going home tomorrow and will pick up Bitzi from the kennel along the way. I have chiro appointments Wednesday and Thursday and meetings to attend. Friday morning we’re driving Hennessy back to meet her mom in Wenona so she can take her the rest of the way home to Norris. Sarah and the three boys ( Milo 11, Oscar 8 1/2 and Arlo 4)are coming up Sunday through Wednesday. It will be so good to spend time with them.

My son will be 37 tomorrow 



I have joined too many clubs and groups at Sun City. I’ve taken the last week off for family and next week too. Many of the residents have nothing to do so want to give me shit when I don’t show up. I have a life and a family. Sometimes I feel like curling up into a cocoon and being alone for a long time. I have too many irons in the fire - or it just feels like it sometimes.

Mikes mother is worrying people again. She has angry depressive mood swings and complains she’s deathly exhausted all the time but seems to have energy for certain things. There has to be something that can help her but I don’t know what it is. Her incident that sent her to the ER last week was transient global amnesia. She had it once before around 8-10 years ago - scary  freaky stuff.

I’m going to buckle down and start pushing myself a lot harder. I don’t do very well just floating around in easy mooshy mode. I need a hard core boot camp gear. I like sweat and intensity. 


Friday, July 2

A fresh new day

This morning I took the opportunity to sleep in until after 7. Compared to recent nights I slept pretty well with less than constant coughing. This stuff I get is exhausting, depressing and so completely gross with all the mucous. Until going back in to the schools after I retired, I was somewhat healthy and free of the mucous monster. The money has been good but not so much to be worth my compromised health. I’m doing laundry ( a lot of gross hack towels and sweaty clothes) and I deep cleaned my bathroom and all the surfaces after taking a nice long steamy shower.

I didn’t have a fever all day yesterday and felt better by 2:15 when I had my doctor video visit. He prescribed an antibiotic and I’ve gotten 3 of them in so far. I feel much improved and even took Bitzi on a 1- mile walk around the neighborhood. I’ve been so congested and out of breath lately so have only been taking her up the hill at the park across the street.


I have to go to Goodwill to drop off some stuff and run in Aldi’s and get some more sugar to make hummingbird nectar and some salad mixes and a chicken to roast. I have hardly cooked much at all the past couple months what with working and neighborhood rep functions. Next Friday I’m going down to Canton / Lewistown area to visit my family and see the new baby Oliver. I should feel better and be germ free by then. I’m going to get my handicapped sister Vicki and take her out to lunch in Peoria on my way home.
Next Tuesday through Thursday Mike and I and his son Casey and wife Jackie and their 4- month old son Aiden are going to the resort in Lake Geneva and staying in a 2-bedroom  condo unit. We’ll swim, go shopping, go out to eat. I told them I would watch Aiden if they want to go do something. Mike and I now have 7 grandsons and 2 granddaughters from our combined kids. His daughter is expecting another boy in November!
































Wednesday, May 12

Slug

5:41am Wednesday

I’ve now finished the steroids and have a few more antibiotics left. My wheezing and congestion seems to be getting worse. I woke up several times during the night. I’m feeling tired, sluggish and congested. The last couple days have been worse at my sub job due to the hysterical raging outbursts of the one little autistic girl. She should not be in a regular classroom but evidently due to the whole pandemic bullshit her needs have not be adequately assessed or addressed. She throws hysterical often violent fits randomly about the smallest things and it disrupts the rest of the classroom, the other kids in person and the 16 online kids, the other teacher and me. I feel like I’m walking on eggshells around that little crazy timebomb. Yesterday was really bad. Honestly after I get home I don’t feel like doing much at all because I feel so drained. I have fourteen days left.





Tuesday, March 16

Knowledge love wisdom patience

I love my mornings of quiet peacefulness and thought. It’s so serene and calming. Today I’m trying to skip my regular coffee. I’m going to go without it a few days and see if my blood pressure is lower with no coffee and lots of water. Usually it’s lots of coffee and very little water. I’ve been off blood pressure medicine a couple years and don’t want to go back on. I want to do all I can to stay healthy.

One of my old friends and former colleagues called me yesterday to say she just found out she has a type of cancer in her abdomen called liposarcoma. It’s in the belly fat not in the stomach. She sees an oncologist Wednesday and she’s hoping to find out if it’s spread. She’s scared and I understand how she feels. She’s in her early 70s.

I went with Mike to his doctor appointment checkup yesterday. He had gained weight over the past year and his blood pressure was up. He had blood taken for lab tests but we haven’t gotten results back. He has to make an eye exam appointment and also a colonoscopy. At least it’s getting done. I’ve been reminding him for months. I’m hoping he retires soon. He’s been under so much stress the last month with the increased workload.

Leaving for the pool now.

11:00 The pool was okay. Same people there everyday in the 6:30am time slot. I just get my exercises done and get out before the others so I can go to the locker room to dry off and dress in peace. I don’t dilly dally. I am more tired today than usual. It may be because I’m off caffeine. I don’t know. I’ve taken Bitzi for two walks around the block. There is still snow and ice slush trying to melt.
I ran over to Aldi and bought 2 bags of groceries including flowers for myself. I got myself a can of ground decaf coffee and made some. I talked to my oldest daughter on the phone for a long time.


Tuesday, February 16

Snow and more snow

We got another 4-6” of snow last night on top of the piles that were already out there. In our small yard some of the drifts are more than 18” high. I went out with Mike and helped clear the driveway and walks. Thankfully I have my super warm long quilted coat and tall fur-lined boots for times like this. It’s actually not as wickedly cold out today as it has been recently so at least that’s good. I don’t think I’m going out anywhere today. After Mike gets done with work tonight we’ll drive the one mile to Beef Shack for their $1.00 hot dogs Tuesday special. They’re pretty good fully-loaded Chicago style dogs. 























Monday, January 4

Hi Hi Hi Ho it’s back to work I go

It’s 6:42am Monday. I have two more weeks of my sub job. It was a bad decision to do this but I’m fulfilling my agreement. I’m teaching from home today but going in to the school Tuesday through Friday. This Thursday and Friday the students will be asynchronous while we teachers have training on how to teach in person while simultaneously teaching online the kids whose parents chose to keep them home. 

 Next week Monday through Thursday I’ll be teaching kids in person while also teaching kids online and going between ten classrooms in order to keep the kids inside all their classrooms. There is no time gap between scheduled classes so no clue how the fuck that will work..... On Friday they will be at home and asynchronous. I am NOT looking forward to going from classroom to classroom teaching in person and online at the same time. It sounds completely nuts to me. That’s only four days of it. I keep reminding myself.

I’ve felt unwell the last few days but my symptoms have been mild and I’ve had no fever. I’ll get mandatory Covid19 testing at school this and next Wednesday. My pay rate doesn’t bump up and double until I complete the day this Friday and then it will be retroactive to day 1. That will help make it worthwhile. 
I have to take Bitzi out for a walk in a few minutes so I can get back inside and prep to teach at 8:00. It’s still dark outside. 

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7:45 I took Bitzi out for a little walk and got my computer logged on and set up and my lessons laid out for the day. I’m not going to worry and move forward with calm confidence. Attitude is everything. Let’s do this. I’m wearing my tight yoga pants, tiger print top and fuzzy slippers. It’s going to be a good day. 














Wednesday, December 30

Wednesday’s child is full of woe

Another morning in the construction zone. The cabinet guys just got here. They were supposed to be already finished but have had a couple hiccups and made some mistakes so it’s taking longer. The kitchen, of course, is the heart of the home so it’s very trying to give that space up most of the day for many days. The cabinets as they are now and unfinished do look a whole lot better. This is just part of a much bigger ongoing remodeling project but at least we’re getting chunks done and out of the way. 

I’m in the spare bedroom where all the boxes of kitchen cabinet junk are piled. It tends to be drafty in here. I think the front window needs replaced. I just went and put my slippers and an extra sweater over my turtleneck on. I have been sorting and arranging some school sub stuff. I am still feeling a bit in angst dreading the remaining two weeks in person. I keep feeling verklempt and have to reassure myself it will be okay. What you imagine and fear is always worse than it really is. The only thing you have to fear is fear itself. 

I’m going out shopping in a bit. It snowed and sleeted last night but now it’s a melting mess out there. Mike and I went out shoveled last night around ten. It was kind of fun actually and Bitzi loved the snow! I’m looking to buy a new comfy cozy recliner for the bedroom. I want another new one for the living room but want to wait until the new floors are installed. I got out my essential oil diffuser vaporizers today and put some eucalyptus and lemon oil in the water reservoir to scent the air. My head and breathing have been a bit troublesome the last few days and it must be in reaction to the heat being on all the time. I can’t imagine what else it could be.



Yesterday we went to Costco and got a couple big king crab legs for New Years Eve tomorrow. I have some shrimp in the freezer too. Neither Mike or I drink, so we do seafood. I got a nice new white parka too for a great price. I love it. My old white Columbia coat is wearing out and has been washed and bleached hundreds of times. 




I am starving (part of my daily fasting) and won’t eat until noon. I haven’t been very good about following my own rules lately and haven’t lost any more weight the past week. Just keep going......I can do this. I can treat my body better than I have been the last couple years. I’ve been really worried and upset about my oldest son the past week. He’s been in trouble for addiction before and now he’s drinking heavily and out of control. I had two uncles who ruined their lives from alcoholism. I hate it. No amount of begging or pleading or reasoning helps. He has to do it himself. I have been in angst over that. That is probably what’s causing my feelings of chest squeezing and breathing constriction. I have to just pray and hope things will work out. When your kids are adults you cannot fix things or make them do anything.

I have started a list of things I want to do or go when the pandemic ends. Driving the Florida Keys is on the list and tent camping/hiking is on it too. I want to go to LasVegas next December......and I want to go to Smoky Mountain National Park again and go hiking. An Alaskan cruise out of Seattle is also on the wish list..........I can always dream of things at least. 

I’m back from a couple stores. I did not find a recliner for the bedroom. The saga continues.....I did run in Aldi and get a few things. It’s very icy and slippery and slushy out there. I didn’t want to shop any more so came home and took Bitzi outside. She just wants to play in the snow and ice. She doesn’t care if she freezes to death. The cabinet guy is almost done. Yesterday he dropped a hammer on my new quartz counter and cracked it. WTF,,,,,so now we will have to investigate getting it fixed. He has offered to pay for the repair. I’m not sure it can be repaired. What in the flipping fuk......Oh well it will all be fine. It’s just a counter. No one got hurt. It is what it is. He’s a very polite guy but seems a bit ditzy and a space case (like I should talk, I know.....)

I’ve been doing some tidying up, well as much as is possible with guys still working in the kitchen with stuff all over. I watched a couple episodes of Hoarders Monday night.  There is nothing that puts me in the mood to clean and organize like watching Hoarders.....scary stuff! Bitzi is lying on the carpet at my feet here in the spare bedroom. I rearranged the desk and stuff. Sill not happy. Maybe when all this other crap is out of here it will feel like a real room and not a junk room. 

I am starving and it’s almost time for me to eat but they’re still in the kitchen. I had to move their step ladder to put the groceries in the fridge. The snow outside is pretty. Snow always looks pretty to me until February and then I want it to be over. I told Mike last night that after he retires I think we should go to the Florida keys for February from then on. He thought that was a good idea to just hang out and drive around to all the keys for a few weeks. Sounds good to me. We really like driving around and exploring places.

I was born on a Wednesday



I’m going to close this post out and go do something else productive so I have some feeling of accomplishment today.  Stay warm and stay well.

SS

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