2:57 am

So I woke up over an hour ago thinking about stuff and couldn’t go back to sleep so I just got up. I fell asleep on the living room couch before 9 so I got several hours of sleep. I’ll try to sleep on the plane later. It’s a 4 hour 40 minute flight so I can zonk out then if needed. There has been an issue between me and a couple in- laws for the last week that has been very hurtful and disturbing. Mike has been upset over it all week too. I only went to the wedding yesterday for him. I did not want to see some people. You just put on your best fake smile and get through it. Suck it up Buttercup. The good thing is that now I see their true colors. When people show you how they really are believe them. Don’t make up excuses and sweep it under the rug. Karma prevails in the end. 

August weather

It’s a little after noon on a Monday. The weather is warm and hazy. I took Bitzi for a nice walk, worked out, tweaked my suitcase that I packed yesterday and did a bit more pre- cruise prep. We’re flying out Sunday and boarding the ship Monday. I’ve checked the weather forecast for all the ports in hopes of packing well and only just what I really need. We’re going on a 7- night Alaskan cruise and only doing carry on luggage and not checking bags at the airport. This is the first time trying this but in general I honestly do tend to take way too much stuff. I have a new nice carry on bag, a nice Swiss gear backpack for under the seat and my big hippy purse bag. That will be enough. I’m always fascinated by the foliage and wildlife on trips. I also love people watching. I’m so excited!

Gearing up

I’m drinking my one coffee. I just got up and opened all the blinds in the front room, kitchen and living room. I’m going to drive down to Fulton County this morning and stay a few days. I’m going to spend time with family. I need it. It’s supposed to be hot and humid with scattered thunderstorms the next few days. I hope I don’t get caught in any bad weather while driving. 

I felt like crying a couple times yesterday. Sometimes things get to me. I know I overthink things and am too sensitive but hey, I am what I am. 

Overcast morning

It’s early morning and I’m drinking coffee with the dog on my lap typing with my index finger on my IPad. It’s garbage day. I got up first, gathered up and took some of the garbage out, fed the dog, opened the blinds, tidied up the house and now am in my news reading / listening to time and my IPad tapping. 

I overdid it yesterday with the weed pulling. I was sitting / laying in the grass several times with exhaustion. The nice warm shower last night felt especially delicious washing away all the little itchy bits of weeds that had made themselves under my clothes as I carried so many armloads of folded up broken branches and dried flowers and weeds to my garden wagon. I got a LOT done and the yard looks so much better. My legs, feet, glutes and back are pretty grouchy today.

I need to do laundry today, walk the dog and do chores I didn’t get done yesterday. I got too involved doing the weed removal yesterday so paused some things I intended to do. In a couple weeks we’re going to our nephew’s wedding then going to the airport early the next morning to fly to Seattle and going on an Alaskan cruise for a week. We’re both excited about it. I’m kind of avoiding my husband the last few days. It’s a self protection mode so I don’t go completely crazy. I just need space. I always have. Us both being retired created a situation I have never before encountered. Being with anyone 24/7 for a long time day after day can have some problems for humans.