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Showing posts with label #insurrection. Show all posts
Showing posts with label #insurrection. Show all posts

Tuesday, January 19

What do you believe?

I just dropped Bitzi off at the groomer, Doggie Styles. She’s just getting her feet, face and butt trimmed and a bath and blow dry. I want to keep her coat longer the next couple months. After I left the groomer place I went across Rt.47 and dropped off the load of bedroom stuff at Goodwill. Bitzi should be done in thirty minutes or so.

My daughter is accusing my two sons of something bad and they swear it isn’t true. Their father, my ex, being the total misogynist he is, sides with his sons. It’s a shitstorm. I believe my daughter. My sons swear it isn’t true. They’ve learned the lying from their father. I’m sad to say it but it’s true.

I watch ( on TV) and read daily news from a variety of reputable sources for my knowledge and to form my opinions. Yes if you only consumed one news source you surely would be more biased as to what that source was reporting. 

I just turned down a high school building float sub job from now until the end of the year. Bartlett High is a good school but I’m not doing any in-person jobs until I’ve had the vaccine.

4:54 I just turned down another full time building float sub from now until the end of the year from Huntley School District. Hurry up with the vaccines already!


Friday, January 15

Breathe deep, blow it out.......

6:40am Friday

I’ve been up for a while and am now drinking my coffee with MCT oil. Mike just got up and is sitting on the couch in the living room with the morning news on. I’m wrapped up in a blanket typing with one finger on my iPad. 

I've been cheating on my diet plan the past few weeks but am back on track and starting to lose again. Amazingly I didn’t gain any back despite the slip ups. I’m not trying to be all or nothing just trying to move more, eat low carb and healthy fresh vegetables. I tend to cheat and eat “ comfort foods” when I’m stressed or feeling ill. At least I’m aware now.......

 I’ve been taking Bitzi on several walks a day and getting around 2 miles in most days which is more than I had been doing. Walking helps with anxiety too.

I took a nice hot bath last night in my jetted tub with my new eucalyptus- scented Epsom salts bath mixture. It was wonderful and relaxing. 

Yesterday I cleaned out my two bedroom dressers and threw some stuff away and took some stuff to Goodwill and a bag of pictures to put up on a ceiling shelf in the garage. I moved one of the empty dressers to the spare bedroom and got rid of my flimsy laptop table that was in there and rearranged things.


7:53 pm
I’m just in a really glum, shitty mood. I haven’t accomplished much today short of a couple walks, some laundry and a bit of house cleaning. We got Chinese takeout for dinner. It wasn’t that great tonight and now my stomach feels squishy. I got my shrimp and broccoli with no sauce, had no rice or egg roll.
Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. I am just sick and f- ing  tired of all the shit going on. The sun has to come out at some point and things get better. Crying doesn’t help.

Thursday, January 14

Hunkered down in the bunker

It’s Thursday morning and I am trying to pick myself up and get going. I deactivated my Facebook account last night. My brother-in-law, who never communicates with me in any way, posted a smartassed, nasty comment to my FB page in support of Trump and all the ugliness with the Republican Party last night. He and his wife have been big pro-Trump supporters for years and I have managed to sidestep any arguments or ugliness until last night. Fuck him and all of them. I just deactivated my account and blocked him. I don’t care what he or the rest of his ilk say. The last several months I’ve been unfollowing and paring down my social media feeds anyway. I did continue to post relevant newspaper articles but that’s about it. I have had it and the gloves are off as far as that shit is concerned.

I’m also going through a lot o worry and emotional stress due to my kids and shit that’s going on, I can’t really tell my husband because he has blabbed to his asshole relatives in the past when I’ve confided in him. I don’t need that shit. So I don’t tell him much of what’s going on. I keep it to myself but it makes me on edge. Oh well I’ve fought tougher dragons than this. Bring it on...........

The sun is shining but the snow is still covering most things outside. Yesterday I went on four walks and noticed the ice was starting to melt a little. The days are starting to get longer and it’s no longer pitch dark at 4:30 now. There is hope. Just keep swimming. I have to watch my caffeine intake and try to stay busy and calm. I’m going to take the dog for another walk and then clean out my dressers and closet. I can’t let things eat at my brain and rattle me. That will never work. It never goes well when that happens.

Friday, January 8

Coup d'état

I cannot wrap my head around what’s going on in the United States of America. I can’t remember a time of unrest and volatile political divisiveness as we have now. The current president is a monster with a cult. Despite his most recent announcement declaring he accepts the election results and wishes for a smooth transfer of power I absolutely know that’s a lie and he’s planning to incite more violence. He is a cult leader. 

I’ve decided that I’m not working again until a couple weeks after I’ve taken both doses of the COVID-19 vaccine. Until then I’ll keep my ass at home and away from people. I’m an introvert and hermit anyway. 

I took the dog up to the main lodge where it’s mostly shoveled and pretty cleared and we walked up and down the full length and back through the parking lots to my car. Yesterday I walked her around fountain view lake but the sidewalks aren’t very cleared and I slipped pretty bad once ( didn’t fall down) so mostly walked in the snow the rest of the time. Bitzi, at 6 pounds, mostly just skitters across the snow. 

I have laundry going and I’m getting ready to go to SuperWalmart here in Huntley. I’m going to make split pea and ham soup. Mike asked for it.

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