My rooster alarm went off at 6:45. It hadn’t been working right but it did today. It’s raining and thundering outside. I’m going to take Bitzi out with the umbrella then drive over and tend the spaniels. I hope it’s not rainy and overcast all day.
Friday, October 23
Saturday, October 17
It’s very chilly and windy outside. It’s supposed to get below freezing tonight so I brought a few potted geraniums and a mum in the garage to protect them. We’re starting to put the stuff back since the painting is done.
For some reason I overslept this morning and came out into the kitchen at 8:38, looked at the clock and realized I was late for the 8am feeding for the two Tibetan spaniels I’m caring for so hurried and threw some clothes on and zoomed the 11 blocks over there. When I went in the dogs came rushing to greet me with joy because they were hungry. I put their food down and they inhaled it and then ran to the door to be let out in the fenced back yard. It’s very briskly cold today so the dogs didn’t dawdle and came back in right away.
Bitzi has puked a couple times today. I’m not sure what’s wrong or if she ate something she shouldn’t. She’s napping in her fluffy bed now.
Mike had some online work to do this morning and now he’s done and started to clear up junk that’s piled around and sort things to get rid of before we put the stuff back in to the rooms that have been painted. We got some new lights installed, a big framed mirror mounted, the TV mounted on a bracket on the wall and four rooms painted fresh. We’re going to go to the countertop store this afternoon and put the deposit down and they’ll come out and measure. We’ve been going to go all week but things kept coming up.
I went for my Huntley School district sub orientation yesterday. My criminal background check has to come back and my health form with the TB test and then I’m good. Their preK-5 starts back to in-school learning next week on a MTTHF schedule with Wednesdays off. Their 6-12 return Nov.2. Elgin SD U-46 returns their K-2 and sp ed students the 26th.
I have to go tend the spaniels again.
We took a few things to Gooodwill as we’re sorting and putting stuff away. I stopped at Great Clips and got the back of my hair trimmed. It’s growing out from the short layered cut I got in March so I have to keep getting it trimmed so it doesn’t look like a mullet. I’m letting my hair color fade so I will soon have all natural color hair. It looks like a very pale reddish blonde now. I’m pretty over coloring and highlighting my hair. So expensive, so much upkeep and so many chemicals. I barely wear any makeup these days too. Just a little eyeliner maybe. That’s it.
It’s still super windy out. I attempted to help put stuff away but Mike is OCD and has to do things in a certain order so I just stopped and waiting for him to finish and move. Whatever.......
I‘M wondering if the dog puking could be after effects of her lepto vaccine she got the other day. Hmmmm either that or she ate something. She’s still acting pretty mopey. Shel’ll follow me around and wag her tail though.
I’m going to give Mike a while and then start sorting and moving things. It sounds like he’s using the vacuum now. It is HIS Shark vacuum, by the way.
Tuesday afternoon we’re going to Maywood for my check up with Dr. Stiff and bloodwork. I haven’t seen him since March and my 6-month appointment was postponed a month for some reason. I‘M sure all my tests will be fine. They’ll probably give me a flu shot This will be my first service with the new Aetna retired teachers group insurance. I have to pay the first $500 out of pockets before they start paying at 80%- not as good as my old school district insurance but it will have to do.
I’ve been reading more lately. Usually I just read news front online newspapers- The Daily Herald, The Washington Post, Huffington Post, The New York Times, Reuters........but I’ve started reading books on my IPad books app and Kindle app. I read the Comey book, the Mary Trump book and now I’m rereading and old favorite. It’s hard for me because of my vision. I have to adjust the font, the contrast, the lighting but I’m doing it. I have friends who read books for hours every day and are in book clubs. I used to be in book clubs before the eye cancer and detached retina and cataracts. Back in the day..........but hey, ya do what ya gotta do and do what you can do.
I’m getting a delivery of spoons today. We are short on eating spoons. I think it’s from me taking them in my lunch to school and them not getting back or something so I have a delivery of spoons coming today. I got my new 9X12 Wilton baking pans yesterday that I ordered. The thing about remodeling and purging your cabinets is that you see what crappy shit you’ve hung on to that needs replaced. OH and I got me a nice new iPad keyboard that actually FITS! I‘M living high now!
Saturday, September 12
Every day when I get up I have to mentally slap myself and not sink into gloom and depression. Every morning I still have to remind myself I’m still alive and have much to be grateful for. I have to constantly nudge myself away from sliding into worry and dread and dark thoughts. I’m a person who expects the worst doom to happen and then I prepare so I’m ready. In my life I’ve been through some pretty awful dark horrible flaming shit and I never want to go back there but it’s always possible. You always have to keep your antennas up to watch out for monsters and you have to make yourself intentionally think GOOD thoughts all day every day. Plus my batshit crazy head always has this inner snarky,cynical, sarcastic, bitchy voice commenting about everything and I’m always trying to tamp her down and remain outwardly pleasant and polite. If you think good thoughts, good things will come to you. If you show kindness to others, kindness will be shown to you. If you are generous to others, you will receive generosity. Life is an echo. It’s the law of attraction. You will attract the energy you radiate.
It’s been gloomy and raining for days now. We’re going over to my stepson and daughter-in-laws for their baby gender reveal party ( that’s “a thing” now with millennials.....) and I’m uncomfortable about going. Due to a sonogram Thursday the doctor identified a mass in the embryo’s chest and is pretty sure it’s some congenital defect called C-PAM. So they’re going to wait to see if it resolves on it’s own or the baby may need surgery immediately upon birth. I can’t imagine why they’re going ahead with the party. I feel so bad for them and don’t know what to say. Plus my husbands ex will be there and she is always loud obnoxious and attention getting. I always feel very strained being around her. I’ve got to just relax, take a deep breath and pull up my big girl panties and slap on a friendly, happy face. I know I had one here somewhere.....
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