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Friday, August 21

Mirage

I’m typing with one finger on my iPad in the still of the early morning. I can hear Michael’s faint rumble snore from the bedroom behind the sound of the ticking wall clock. I had a pretty good sleep although I woke up a couple times itching. I think a mosquito must have gotten in. They always find me.

I have an indoor pool one- hour time slot reservation this morning. The schedule five time slots each week day allowing twelve people total. There are also four two-hour times you can swim at the outdoor pool. You don’t need an appointment and just show up but they only allow fifty so it’s a first come basis. I’ve been there twice now. Most of the people are there just to stand ( or float on pool noodles) and chit chat. At the indoor pool everyone is exercising or swimming laps. I took my foam barbells and did my exercises at the outdoor pool the other day but everyone else was just standing around. I just did my exercises for an hour and left. I was worn out.

Tonight is the wedding in Elburn. I’m looking forward to it. There are only going to be around fifty people there. It’s probably going to be kind of strange with people in masks but oh well. I’m wearing a new royal blue wrap dress and haven’t even tried it on yet. I hope it looks good.

Mike at Rush hospital 11 years ago when I was very bad and near death.


Lola a few years ago learning to shoot her bow.

I know the pandemic is going on but I keep daydreaming about getting away somewhere- the Florida Keys, a cruise, Gatlinburg, The Mirage in Las Vegas......I just want to get away. Mike is too wary of one of us contracting the virus . The damned virus.

9:15 Mike is in a Zoom meeting in his office. I cleaned up the kitchen and scrubbed the crusted baked beans dish with an SOS pad and got it clean finally ( it soaked overnight) and I loaded the dishwasher, wiped the counters off, took out the trash and recycling and cooked the two remaining ears of sweet corn in the microwave so I can keep them in a ziplock bag in the fridge. Mike loved the ribs I made yesterday. I let them char on the grill then wrapped them in foil and cooked them slow in the oven for several hours sealed in foil. Mine was a bit too salty for me. I think the rub plus the barbecue sauce equaled too much salt but he loved them. I haven’t made ribs in a couple years. 












Thursday, August 13

The last rose of summer

I really love listening to nature and bird sounds. I’m sitting at the kitchen table typing away on my less than spectacular iPad Bluetooth keyboard. It’s getting a little better. I put a little piece of nano tape on the back of the iPad to keep it in place in the holder propping it up to the keyboard. As I mentioned yesterday it didn't’fit right when I bought it. It’s obviously made for a wider device but it works so we make do with what we’ve got. Whatever.

I took Bitzi for a walk up the hill at the park across the street. She absolutely loves going for walks and smelling all the smells and meeting people and dogs. At five months she still gets way too excited when we meet someone and want to go batshit crazy and jump on them. We’re working on her staying calm and minding her manners.

Before the park I ran over to the Aldi store (conveniently only a mile from my house) because we were out of milk. I also got some salad stuff and coffee. I try to be quick. Mask up, in and out. I prefer Aldi because it’s small compared to the other stores. There’s a SuperWalmart on the other side of Rt 47 from Aldi and that probably only a mile and a half or two from my house. There are lots of things close by for convenience. Huntley is a smallish town (compared to other Chicago suburbs) and our community, Sun City, is a subset within Huntley. We have about 10,000 residents in Sun City, all over 55 years of age. 

I need to wash the kitchen floor as there seems to be something sticky over by the sink. I also need to pull nails out of the walls in the spare bedroom and do some digging and transplanting outside. I’ll need to take Bitzi on a couple more walks today. I took some leftover pasta and sauce from the freezer to thaw for dinner. Last night I doctored up frozen pizzas and we watched Castaway with Tom Hanks and Helen Hunt. I forgot that I don’t like the way they ended it. Really great special effects during the plane wreck though. Tonight we’re going to rewatch The Irishman. I got bored and fell asleep the first time a couple years ago. I resubscribed to Hulu to rewatch The Handmaid’s Tale. I’ll probably cancel when I’m done unless the new season drops. I’m also waiting for the new season of Harlots and on Amazon Prime The Amazing Mrs. Maizel.

Mike’s  newspaper company recently had several people accept the buyout offer, a few were just laid off and some of the remaining staff had to be reassigned. There were several very unhappy people but I believe that’s kind of settled down now and today they’re having a company-wide Zoom meeting to big farewell to those leaving and thank them for their service and to thank those taking job reassignments. Mike is supposed to speak at the beginning to salute one of his former reporters who is going. He’s been going over his speech and bouncing ideas off me. 
His paper sold their big corporate headquarters building in Arlington Heights a couple years ago and then rented two floors in a nearby office building to save money. Now after months of everybody working remotely they’re realizing they don’t even need that so are going to sublease it and move any needed office space at all into spare rooms on their big print facility building on the Elgin-OHare expressway. The individual  bureau buildings in Elgin, St. Charles, Aurora, etc...were closed several years ago. The company continues to downscale and condense operations as the world and media coverage changes. They still have a brisk online newspaper presence but the print newspaper produc is dwindling fast. The world is always changing and your have to adapt or die. Simple. 

There is a sweet sadness in seeing my last roses of the season knowing they’re in for a winter’s sleep and hoping they survive to bloom next spring. I have a pink knockout rose blooming now on the south side of the house and two pink tea roses on the north side and three red knockout rose bushes blooming but dropping petals and fading. Last winter I covered the roses up really well so they all survived.




11:43. I took Bitzi out for another walk and then brought her inside and let her have some free time running around in the house before she went back in her portable pen in the kitchen to start eating her egg. She gets free time a few times a day but only while we’re watching her. There have been a couple pees and one poop on rugs or a carpet. That was a few weeks back but we still are not giving her free run of the house. I have a couple belts on a strap hanging from the back door to ring when I take her out. I did have her pen over by the door with the bells but then she was bumping in to them and ringing them all the time. Hopefully once she earns free run of the house she’ll know to ring the bells to go outside to do her business. That is my hope. She may be old enough next month and come in heat. I’ll have to get some little doggie diapers I guess. The vet said she shouldn’t be spayed until she’s at least a year old or 18 months or older if I decide to breed her. I’m not sure yet. If I breed her I’m considering another ShihTzus or a toy poodle but it needs to be no bigger than 10 pounds. I don’t want any chance of complications giving birth. These dogs typically only have three pups per littler. I’m sure if she did have some I’d just want to keep them all.

I’m not getting my to-do list done. It’s getting kind of hot and humid outside which is why I’m not out there digging and transplanting. I should have done it this morning but I was feeling kind of dizzy and foggy the first hour after I got up. I stayed up later than normal last night watching the end of The Firm and then Castaway with Mike and then an episode of The Profit and then I went to bed but watched 2 episodes of the the Handmaid’s Tale before falling asleep and then I woke up for a while after Mike came to bed after having taken Bitzi out......so not sure how much sleep I actually got.

I’m okay that Biden chose Kamala Harris for his running mate.I liked her during the primaries in the beginning until she got nasty with Joe and that soured me on her. Hopefully they can make a winning team. I just wish it was all over, he won and it was February already and the pandemic was over. Normally I hate February and all those weeks of dreary overcast bullshit. I guess we’ll have to wait another year or two to be snowbirds since Mike is still working. He has a bunch of accrued vacation time but cannot ever spare the time to take off.......because they have SO FEW people now.

Yes I should be doing something more productive right now but I’m not feeling like it. Is this what retirement feels like?  I don’t want to wither away and curl up in a dusty ball and not do anything. I guess I’m now in my introductory / exploratory phase of retirement. I shouldn’t feel guilty.

Lola and Milo stayed at their grandpa’s house ( my ex) and were riding the horse following the donkey this morning and were going to the sale barn with him this afternoon. The girls said he’s doing better and feeling stronger and eating again. I saw him last week when he and Sarah met me in Mendota to drop off Oscar so he could come stay for a couple days with the other kids. I hadn’t seen my ex in at least a year and half and he was huge then. the other day he look gaunt and had flesh hanging from his face. I guess the colon cancer was so far progressed and he wasn’t eating and lost a ton of weight fast. When he was doing bad I know it was hard on my younger daughter because she lives in Lewistown closer to him and was taking care of him. He’s a very demanding, nit picky narcissist and now all four of my kids realize how he is. I guess it’s better for Sarah now as he’s able to take care of more of his needs. He obviously feels good enough to have the kids stay there.

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2:49

After lunch I started getting sick at my stomach. I felt hot and broke into a sweat but didn't have a fever. I threw up several times until empty, waited a bit, took an alka seltzer, fell asleep in bed for a while. Feeling better now. I don't know what hit me. When I got up I had a couple of swigs of Diet Pepsi and took the dog out and picked a last of the season bouquet. The flowers are all getting dried out & crunchy. No transplanting flower roots for me today. Maybe tomorrow.












Saturday, August 8

I have become comfortably numb

8:39am I’ve been up for a couple hours. I’m waiting for the UPS store and Kohl’s to open so I can take in some Amazon returns. I started feeling a little creepy with a sore throat last night. I gargled with salt water, flushed my sinuses and took a Benadryl. I slept pretty well but I still feel a bit of a sore throat and a little feverish but my temperature is normal.


2:36pm we went to a couple stores to return a few of my Amazon things and came back home and cleaned up some kid messes and put bedding away and ran the vacuum.
Our next door neighbor, John, is 100 years old today and some of the neighbors put together a parade for him and some military guys came dressed in uniforms and gave him military salutes and medals. I took a bunch of pictures and Mike is getting a story in tomorrow’s paper ( I’ll get credit for photos!). At five the neighbors on the other side of John and his wife Fran, Steve & Marcia are holding a birthday party on their driveway so I’m taking down my rolling Bluetooth speak and have created a playlist of 40s and 50s and military music for the party. I have a big insulated thermos I filled with ice and sugar-free lemonade & vodka to take. I’m already buzzed from tasting it while I was mixing it up.





















Friday, June 26

Phase Four

7:23am. It’s overcast and lightly, gently raining. I can hear the marsh birds twittering away through the back screen door and the puppy gnawing away at her chew bone and squeaking her pink ball. The landscapers just now arrived and I can hear their mowers whirring in the back yard. The other day we gave  them the full size bed, headboard & sheets and comforter set from our spare room. It’s a small room because I’m redecorating the room in to a more usable space with a small desk. I’ll have inflatable beds for when the kids come.  I found an extra sheet for that bed after they left the other day so just took it out to them with a couple Gatorades. 
Yesterday I went through all the old pictures that were in the spare room and took all the pictures out of all the frames. I’m giving all the frames to Goodwill and sealing all the pictures in a huge ziplock bag. I always start crying when I go through old pictures so I tend to avoid it and put it off. I have a while bunch more pictures in frames in two drawers in my bedroom to go through today. We only have so much wall space in this house. 
Mike is at physical therapy. The landscapers are gone already. It doesn’t take them long for our small yard.
We just found out that Mikes son Casey and his wife Jackie are expecting a baby. That will be number nine for us!



8:41 Mike is home from PT. He has two more weeks to go. I’m going to go start taking the pictures out of frames from the bedroom drawers. I hope I don’t start crying again.  It’s a pretty gloomy day with more rain and storms coming. 

9:27 I’m done with the pictures and took the empty frames to the garage to load in the back of the Tahoe and take to Goodwill. I didn’t look at the pictures too much because I didn’t want to get into that funk about the past. I just took them out of the frames and put them in the big bag with the others. It’s really dark and pouring rain now. Today starts Phase Four of reopening ILlinois so more things will be open. There will be modified indoor seating at restaurants.

11:36 I’m back from Aldi and Goodwill. I got a new thermal zip tote bag at Aldi. I have a tote bag addiction! It was pouring monsoon-like rain when I left Aldi. Fortunately I had my umbrella. I donated over forty picture frames to Goodwill, some of them new or like new. It feels so good to clear things out!

2:40 I’ve been out and taken a couple good walks with Bitzi this afternoon. Now she’s passed out on the rug. It’s starting to rain hard and thunder again. 




Wednesday, May 13

Grin and bear it

7:39am. I’ve been up for about ninety minutes. Mike went for physical therapy on his shoulders ( first time). The office is about a mile away from our house -very convenient. He has been having pain and loss of motion in his shoulder sockets for some time and I’ve been nagging him to get it taken care of. 

I have a bunch of back-to-back zoom private 5th grade lessons today between noon and four. Next week will be my last week doing these. The last day of school is May 26. Hurray!

I’m intending to drive down to Lewistown, Canton, Norris Friday and visit my family briefly and drive back home. I haven’t been down there since December. It will be good to take a nice drive and give Mike a break away from me. šŸ‘¹ The weather is supposed to be really nice. I’m getting my car serviced today with an oil change, tire rotation and new batterie in my fob. I really love driving that car. So nice.

I had a phone interview yesterday with a lady in the home office in Nebraska for Resort Lifestyles Communities Inc. They have an opening for the lifestyle director at a new facility ( Huntley Springs) only about a mile from my house. It’s a 55+ resort all-inclusive community ( all apartments and condos) it is not part of the Sun City community in Huntley where I live.  The phone interview went pretty well I thought and now the site manager is going to call me. They’re going to have to raise the pay higher than the lady on the phone mentioned yesterday for me to even consider it. I don’t know how much wiggle room is there but considering the price the residents pay to stay there I’d say they ought to be able to go much higher. I just was sick of all the hoops and bullshit that have developed with teaching the last few years. Also I am not going to go on being exposed to all those kid germs and being sick constantly. Now that I’ve been out of the schools for a couple months I’m feeling better than I have in a long time. 

10:03. We took my car over to the mechanic and dropped it off. In a couple hours Mike will drive his Tahoe over there and leave it to be serviced and drive my car home then later this afternoon we’ll go get the Tahoe. Both were well overdue for an oil change.

I’ve been tending some sourdough starter for a couple weeks now and have gotten over it so used it all putting it into bread dough. I didn’t follow a recipe I was just free stylin as I usually do. I kneaded for a long time and added some olive oil to it. Now it’s in a big covered bowl on the stove for its first rise. It will either turn out good or suck big time. I like improvising when I cook. It gives an added element of excitement and anticipation for me. Some women have told me they ALWAYS follow recipes exactly. That’s just boring to me. I always have to jazz things up. I do read recipes to get general ideas though.

I just heard another bird hit the window. There are lots of birds around here. Mike hates them. I love them. He doesn’t want any filthy creatures around the house. I just roll my eyes and ignore it. 











10:17 I’m going out for a walk before I have to start teaching. Trying to keep a calm, positive demeanor







4:51pm So only one kid out of six didn’t show up for her Zoom lesson. Not as bad as usual.

8:50 pm  My bread turned out shitty, very dense and biscuit-like. I threw it away. You win some you lose some.





Friday, May 8

Shit’s getting real

5:04 pm   It’s been an okay day. My patience for this distance learning Zoom stuff is wearing thin. I just don’t want to do it anymore with the distorted delayed audio and video, some kids who are just unbearably awful and lazy with all sorts of noise and distractions in the background. For the last couple weeks I’m going to combine them so I’m not facing the daily torture. Not all of them but more than two are just awful, dumb as stumps and never bother to practice. I can only be so patient with people.Seriously. 

I saw an opening for activity director at this new senior living all- inclusive resort facility that’s being built about 1 1/2 miles from my house. It looks really nice online so I filled out an application and they must have liked it because the lady in charge of hiring at their main office emailed me Tuesday and then called me for a phone interview this morning but I didn’t catch the call. My ringer must have been off. I called her back and got her voicemail. Hmmm.

I got a retirement checklist from HR today. My email will be turned off on the 28. Don’t let the door hit you in the ass on the way out! I heard other teachers who retired say the district cuts off the email account on the last day. It all feels a little weird now. 

Wednesday, May 6

Keep paddling or sink


12:52 Thursday 

I’m making jalapeƱo cheddar bread with the sourdough starter I’ve been brewing for a week. It’s on its second rise now. I have a couple Zoom group lessons in a while. I went to the store this morning and filled up the Tahoe with gas. I have some red potatoes in the crockpot with beef broth and pepper. I’ll mash them later.









Tuesday, April 7

Paranoia

5:44am

I woke up a couple hours ago wheezing and coughing. I got up and got a drink and tried to cough it out and tried to go back to sleep but every time I did I keep dreaming I had the virus and was being put in isolation on a ventilator. I kept dismissing it, trying to go back to sleep, trying to prop myself up higher on my wedge pillow to help me breathe but the wheezing was worse than normal so I just put a sweater over my pajamas and came out to the front sitting room so I wouldn’t wake Michael. I think I’ve just been reacting to the trees and bushes  budding lately causing my increased wheezing the past couple days. It’s just that there’s nonstop TV coverage of all the rising death numbers with this pandemic. In our county so far 234 now positive and 14 deaths. 

Yes I need to slap myself and snap the fuck out of it. Don’t be a sissy girl.


6:13 Now I made my second cup of coffee, tidied up the kitchen a bit, opened all the window blinds and used my Symbicort inhaler. I haven’t used it in a long time. I have 3 Zoom instrument sectional meetings with my sixth graders today. I did three private lessons yesterday. I have attended a few Zoom meetings and am becoming somewhat more comfortable with them although not at all at ease or fluent. Thursday I have sectionals with my fifth graders - higher numbers in the groups but I’m sure a lot of them won’t show up. We are just doing our best given the circumstances.
Mike has a Zoom work meeting to attend today, he is pretty damned grouchy and not at all technology friendly. He missed his company’s Zoom training when he took me to Loyola for my oncologist’s check up two weeks ago. I tried to help him learn Zoom last night but he was grouchy and snappy. One of his feet are sore crusty and cracked. He has diabetes and doesn’t take care of himself, watch his diet or check his blood sugar. Foot care is important for diabetics. Last night before I went to bed I got out this foot soak tub I have and had him put his feet in it and I poured peroxide over his foot cracks that are getting infected and are hurting him so much. He is on edge these days about a lot of things: his mother’s cancer and care and treatment, the economy, his job status ( they just cut everyone’s salary by 15% across the board and I’m retiring....), the epidemic and our future. He doesn’t want me going in stores at all now even with a mask and gloves. HE goes in the stores with no mask or gloves and just uses hand sanitizer. There are now twelve reported cases of the virus in our town ( Huntley). I’m not sure if there have been any deaths here but the neighboring towns have rapidly rising numbers of deaths from the virus.


As if those things weren’t enough, the whole politically divided atmosphere in our culture is nearly unbearable. I cannot imagine how so many people have been sucked up into the Trump cult. Seriously. All the white supremacists and KKK and dumb-ass big- mouthed violent nut jobs with their idiotic red MAGA  hats. It’s a growing cult.

Okay gotta get off this psycho rant and go for a walk! 


Sunday, April 5

Riding the storm out

5:40 pm 

Like most every day lately it’s been a calm uneventful day. The sun was shing all day and the temperature was mild. I went for a nice walk without a jacket around noon. Later in the afternoon I planted some stargazer lily bulbs in the front of the house and some bleeding heart roots in the back. I planted some morning glory seeds in the 3 big pots behind the patio lattice and sprinkled some allium seeds in the north side flower bed and then a whole bunch of assorted perennial wildflower seeds on the south side. Then I took most of my houseplants outside for the season. I still have all my aloe Vera plants inside still but they’re going out too. 
I made some germ face masks out of bandanas. We won’t be going back to school. I’m done in 7 weeks and out for good. What a crazy bummer way to go out. I’m trying really hard to stay positive. I’ve made myself a schedule to stick too so I don’t spin off the edge of reason #covid-19 #pandemic #shelterathome


Tuesday, March 31

Stay at home extended until April 30.

I’m pretty bummed out but not surprised at all that the Governor today extended the stay at home order to April 30. I know the virus is going to spread and things are going to get a lot worse, no doubt about it. It just sucks. 


Monday, March 30

Professional development

5:15 am Monday

Mike is sitting upright on the couch in the living room snoring loudly while the morning ABC7 news jabbers away. I tried to get him to go back to bed and he answered me but he’s pretty zonked out. I’m always amazed how he can fall asleep anywhere any time. Weirdly amazing.


So today I have an online meeting at 8 followed by seven online technology training sessions. Honestly it’s all kind of a blur. In reality I’ll probably only use a couple different apps. I only have 7 weeks left and the other teacher wants to be in charge of our fifth and sixth grade students so I’m just providing support and enrichment materials and going with the flow. I wish it was already over. Seriously.






Saturday, March 28

Rain on the roof

4:52am

I’ve been up for quite a while. I couldn’t get back to sleep and laid there tossing and turning, bothering Michael so I finally got up, put on my tone and slippers, washed my face, took out my retainers, brushed my teeth and came out to the kitchen and made myself a coffee with milk and cinnamon in it. I can hear the heavy rain on the roof and the gentle growl of thunder. I think it’s supposed to rain all day and night and into tomorrow.

This whole pandemic is like some weird bell tolling in my mind. I keep thinking of the principal of naturally occurring forest fires supposing to be nature’s way to clear the way for new growth. Is that the same deal as pandemics?Ive become so troubled watching the news with increasing numbers of deaths across the world. It’s very hard not to get bugged out by it. I’ve been trying hard to not let it get to me.

Yesterday Mike got an email from his company notifying all employees that effective immediately there would be an across the board 15% salary cut. About nine years ago it was a 20% cut so Mikes now down 35% of where his salary should be. Plus lately he’s working from home and having a lot more to do and longer hours. Frankly I’m surprised the paper’s still in business. They’ve been making cut after cut for years but at the same time buying up lots of smaller downstate newspapers. I call bullshit. Mike also has a dear old friend who’s on the edge of death. Yesterday was not a good day. The rain is now pelting down harder and louder.

Most  all of the day Wednesday, Thursday and Friday I did technology training for distance learning. The platform the district has been using and pushing us to use and training us on ( well one of them) is called Zoom. It’s a free video conferencing app. As of last night at 6 pm we were told NOT to use it with our students due to liability matters with minors. I’ve already used it with a few students. Some teachers have built their whole distance learning units around it. Fucking swell guys.



Mike’s mother had her single brain tumor radiation treatment Wednesday from a gamma knife technology procedure. Evidently the cancer detected in the lower back of her brain was super tiny so it was just a one shot and done. In a week or so she’ll start going for her immunotherapy infusion treatments for the lung and lymph node cancer. Mike and his siblings are taking turns taking her. I haven’t been out to visit anyone or go inside any stores in a couple weeks. My immune system still isn’t strong or normal. We have about 90 confirmed cases of the virus in our county and 8 deaths so far. I’ve been going for walks every day so I get out of the house and don’t completely lose my shit. I’ll greet or chat with neighbors and passersby from a distance as I’m walking. The rain is slowing down now and dwindling off. There is a relaxed soft trickle sound of water out the front sitting room window. 

In the last week several the neighbors around us have had their landscape companies come and do their spring yard opening clean up and prep- remove branches and leaves, re-edge the flower beds, mow, mulch. Most of the neighbors in our 55+ community use landscapers. None of the yards are very big. Most of them also hire snow removal services. We do not. Yet. So anyway, the yards on either side of our house look all spruced up. Ours is not but it’s not bad. I walked around and inspected it yesterday looking for flowers coming up. 



Mike said his daughter is now having pretty bad postpartum depression and Justin, her husband, and Coleen, her mother, have been helping a lot with the baby. I have never been very close with her. She hasn’t let me and I haven’t pushed it. I try to be nice in a gentle way. Not pushy. I hope it gets better for her. 

Now I don’t hear any rain, just the high-pitched squeal and whoosh of the furnace in the laundry room. It’s taken some getting used to living in a house all on one floor with no basement. It is easier to take care of though. We got rid of a ton  of stuff when we moved. Our old house had a large finished basement and we accumulated so much stuff over the years.








6:
Birds have woken up and are chirping away outside. I love birds. There is a wetland / marsh area behind down the hill from our yard and a park across the street with lots of tall stately oak trees so there are a lot of places for wildlife to live nearby. We seem to have a LOT of birds here. When we moved here birds had a big nest in our exhaust vent on the side of the house. You could hear them scratching around in there and going in and out. Pretty creepy. We put a screen up to prevent them from doing it. Every once in a while you can hear them scratching at it trying to get in. They frequently fly into a window too. 

So I have to fill out my TRS retirement forms, scan them and send them in this weekend. I also have to scan our 2016 income tax return because I was on disability due to my stem cell transplant that year and TRS needs that or I won’t start getting my pension. Also, due to Covid-19, there is not any school district retirees banquet planned. Yeah this all blows big time. Oh well.... onward and upward.



Fire And Rain
Just yesterday morning they let me know you were gone
Susanne the plans they made put an end to you
I walked out this morning and I wrote down this song
I just can't remember who to send it to
I've seen fire and I've seen rain
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I'd see you again
Won't you look down upon me, jesus
You've got to help me make a stand
You've just got to see me through another day
My body's aching and my time is at hand
And I won't make it any other way
Oh, I've seen fire and I've seen rain
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I'd see you again
Been walking




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