Im still really sore from working in the garden. I feel as if I’ve been beaten with hammers. I took a shower but it didnt help.
Friday, June 5
7:39pm Friday I’m in Lewistown watching my grandsons. The three year old is pretty difficult. I’m exhausted. I have the puppy with me, trying desperately to continue her potty training. It’s hard with the kids, in strange surroundings for the puppy. I forgot to bring her bells she rings when she needs to go out. My daughter Sarah talked to her dads oncologist regarding his biopsy report and prognosis. It’s bad and very grave. His colon cancer has spread to the adrenal glands, lungs and other places. My sons, who work the farm, have been at bitter odds for some time which makes the situation much much worse. Sarah is trying to take care of her dad. He’s very sick and weak. He’s going to get worse quickly. My oldest daughter has been struggling for months. I think a lot of it is her marriage. I’m picking up her girls, my granddaughters, tomorrow and taking them home with me for a week so she can go to Evansville with her husband where he’s working a construction job. It’s a very difficult time for my family. Some of this stuff I can’t talk to my husband about. He tends to be too gruff and inflexible. Life isn’t a straight line, plainly black and white, right or wrong. Shit happens. Sometimes really bad shit happens... My heart has so many many strings attached to it. Sarah has been sobbing a few times today. I am trying SO HARD to help but still feel helpless.
Monday, March 9
3:31 Monday 3/9.
I’m home from work. It’s been raining all day. I took some homemade vegetable soup out of the freezer and put it in a pot on the stove to simmer. I dazzled it up with some added ingredients. I made some biscuits but haven’t put them in to bake yet.
Mike and his brother took their mother to the oncologist today to get the results from the PET scan and brain MRI. It’s stage 4 and has progressed from the lung to the brain and lymph nodes #cancersucks, #curecancer. Mike said his mom was taking it well like nothing was wrong. In shock I’m sure. He’ll tell me more later when he gets home. I’m very sad. I know Mike is sad too but he won’t admit it or let it get to him.
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