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Tuesday, February 9

Trump’s second impeachment trial and the constitution

I think Trump’s hateful ranting speech on January 6 did motivate the rioters to storm the Capitol and commit heinous acts of violence. He was encouraging his cult to overthrow the election. I think this speech should not be protected under first amendment rights as his lawyers are claiming in his defense. Also he did it while he was still president. I say prosecute him to the fullest extent. His whole cult needs to be over. Cut the monster’s head off. 

I watch CNN Anderson Cooper 360 almost every day and Real Time with Bill Maher every Friday and ShowTimes The Circus on Sunday nights. I guess the political stuff is like sports to me. Mike watches them too  and usually knows more details than me. There has been so much awful, unbelievably crazy stuff going on the last several years. 

Last week on Wednesday Northwestern Medicine started giving vaccines to Sun City residents 75 and up here at our main lodge. We have over 10,000 residents in our community so the last several days the lodge parking lot has been full and there’s a steady stream of seniors coming and going from the lodge. It’s going quickly and smoothly. I take Bitzi over there to walk her on the nicely cleared sidewalks so I see all the people going in for their vaccines. It makes me happy and hopeful to see it and I know I’m witnessing history. I’m happy to go get my first vaccine dose this morning. Hopefully phase 1C will start soon and Mike will get his. 

I woke up at 3am and couldn’t go back to sleep. It’s 4:59 now. I’m drinking coffee and had part of an almond poppy seed muffin. I woke up at three thinking I shouldn’t work subbing until at least the end of March when both vaccines will be in and taking full effect. I’ve been considering going back in a couple weeks after the first vaccine but my subconscious decided for me this morning. I don’t need the money. I have a pension and a lot of money in the bank. I need to be healthy and happy. I’ll stay busy with other things. 

Sunday, February 7

The world getting vaccinated

It’s daybreak and I’m facing the East window in the front room watching the soft blurred pink and blue muted colors of dawn breaking. I love this special silent fresh time. I made a pot of too-strong coffee. I grabbed a new kind at Aldi the other day. It’s even a bit strong for me. Mike won’t drink it. It’s too strong and bitter for him. The past couple bags have been milder Dunkin Donuts blend for him. 
My braided trunk money tree is dying. Most of the leaves turned yellow brown and fell off. It was doing fine on the porch all summer. Things got bad when I brought it inside at the end of summer and put it in the bedroom by the window. I don’t know if it got drafts from the window, too much heat from the vent, too much water. I pulled the roots out of the soil yesterday to see if they were rotting but I couldn’t tell. It’s just too cold in the garage right now to do a messy repotting. I put some baking soda in the pot soil and mixed it around and cut off all the dead parts. I moved it out to the front entry area where it was when I first bought it. That’s all I can do so now it’s swim or sink bitch. I hate when my plants die. 

I kept waking up in the night thinking about this possible sub job I’m considering taking at an elementary school in Elgin. It’s a cross categorical resource teacher for 58 days from March 1 until June 3. I like getting used to a place and having time to get comfortable. I don’t like not being home for the puppy or being able to do my swim appointments. I do like making money, feeling productive, having something to do. On the other hand I don’t like having something to do. If I took it I’d have one vaccine in me and get the second one the week I’d start so I’d feel more protected. Mike said I could just sub here for Huntley district but I’m not familiar with any of their schools. I have worked in most all of the U-46 schools over the years. I’m still not sure and still mulling it over. Plus Huntley wasn’t giving vaccines to the subs and district 300 that I’ve also subbed for put the subs behind everyone else and will only vaccinate subs if there are any leftovers. My old school district contacted me right away about getting my vaccine along with everyone else. I feel more loyal to them. I know that’s probably silly but that’s how I feel.

I have a bunch of Amazon returns to drop off at Kohl’s this morning. I need to quit shopping and doing “ retail therapy” - another reason to take the long sub job! Keep me off the Amazon app....
So I drove the five miles to Algonquin Kohl’s and returned my eight Amazon items for refund. Good to get that done. Bitzi has been outside several times this morning and WILL NOT PEE. It IS super freezing cold. I’m going to go try again.
Okay we walked about a block and she peed but was shivering so I started to walk back but she wouldn’t move and just stood there shivering like she was freezing to death so I scooped her up and wrapped my arms around her and carried her back inside. Poor little thing.

Saturday, February 6


It’s Saturday afternoon. It’s overcast and treacherously icy outside. I’ve been outside four times today with Bitzi and slipped every time. Thank goodness I didn’t fall clear down and bash anything. It makes me not want to go out. But with a dog you have to. 

I made a vanilla Bundt cake to take over to Casey & Jackie’s tomorrow. We’re going to meet and watch the new baby for a bit to give them a break. We entered a Sun City contest for the Super Bowl winner and the point total. I picked Tampa Bay. 

I feel like an armadillo rolled up into my shell today. I’ve got stretchy yoga pants, a big Green Lake Wisconsin hoodie, alpaca socks and my fuzzy slippers on-super cozy and warm. 

It’s snowing again! Gaaah

I did get an appointment to get my first Moderna Covid vaccine this Tuesday morning in Elgin through my school district so I’m relieved by that. Onward and upward!

Friday, February 5

My dislike of February

In general I like winter. I like the nip in the air, the graceful dusting of snow making everything seem magical, I like Christmas trees glowing with lights, I like presents, I like family get together and special foods of the season, I like sweaters and soft cozy scarves and mittens. I just do not like February. It’s usually mostly overcast and comes with bitter winds and ice and a stupid groundhog holiday. I do not like it at all. I vow I will be somewhere much warmer and greener next February. As God is my witness I shall. (Ala Scarlett O’Hara......)

It’s super frigid outside and there is a shitload of snow and ice on the ground and the puppy has pooped inside TWICE today. She doesn’t like to do her business outside when it’s freezing like I have been on poop watch alert all day. I’ve taken her out a couple times. I tried taking her for a walk at the lodge earlier (usually it tends to be cleared off over there better and you can actually walk on the sidewalks) BUT they’re now giving he vaccine to all the Sun City residents 75 and older so it was a mob scene at the lodge this morning and most all the parking spots were filled. Once I did manage to park way at the end and started walking Bitzi there were all these old people coming in walkers and wheelchairs and Bitzi gets excited and was trying to jump at them and get tangled up with her leash so I tried to walk away from them quickly but ultimately I decided it was just too bitterly cold for my little baby and carried her all the way back down the parking lot to my car. I’ve taken her outside a couple times today for a few minutes each. 

It’s 3pm and Mike is on his last Zoom meeting of the week. He hasn’t quit yet. I think he’s probably waiting for the next buy-out offer to come along. So he’s still plodding away. I’ve been thinking about doing the coursework to get certified as a medical coder biller. They make pretty good money any I could do it all remotely. I have a friend in Canton who does coding for a hospital in Florida. It sounds like a good gig so I am investigating that. 

I got more news about the vaccine roll out from one of the nearby districts I sub for but evidently the daily subs are all the back of the list behind full time teachers, full time building subs and long term whatever. I am hoping I can get lucky in the next couple weeks and get a vaccine. It’s hard to be patient. My daughter is going back to work at a care residence for profoundly physically and mentally disable children so she got her vaccine #1 today. She had been working for her dad but that turned in to a shitstorm ( I knew it surely would......) so now she isn’t working for that bastard any more. 

Some of the blogs I read are so aggravating because there are so many frigging ads, pop-ups and links that take you zooming to somewhere else you didn’t intend to go to and you can’t manage to get to the meat of the article you wanted to read that you were lured into clicking on the title because It teased something that you were actually interested in. I HATE THAT SHIT. I just want to read an article that has good useful content not a bunch of drawn out malarkey and advertising. I know, I know that’s how they make money but doesn’t it defeat the purpose of writing it in the first place if the reader has to go on a fishing expedition just to get to discover they content isn’t really what you proposed it was in the title in the first place? Isn’t that kind of shameless? I thin it is. There are tons of links like that on Pinterest- you think you’ve found something really good and worthwhile but then when you click to read it it’s bullshit. I hate that. 

I canceled my 6:30 pool appointment today. I just felt there was no way I was going over there this morning in the dark in the frozen sub-zero bullshit. Also we didn’t clean the drive off last night so it was still there this morning. So last night I canceled my pool appointment, turned my 5:15 rooster crow alarm off and just snuggled up under the covers. We woke up this morning shortly after 7 and I made coffee and we both went out and cleared off the driveway and sidewalks and shoveled a little area for Bitzi (but she still didn’t want to use it). Mike uses the snowblower and I shovel. I have a big long quilted crazy warm hooded coat and Ugg boots so I’m fine. I figure shoveling is good exercise and my shoulders aren’t all screwed up like Mike’s. It’s not even so much the snow I don’t like. It’s the prolonged overcast days and the ice that I don’t like. Snow is okay by itself. 

Thursday, February 4

Push through the pain


I’ve woken up several times the last few nights in pain from my exercising in the pool lately. I changed up my water exercises this week and my muscles are really feeling it. I woke up hours ago and was thinking I’d cancel my pool time today and rest but just now ultimately decided I’ll go ahead and go and stretch out my legs to ease the pain. I have to tell myself no pain no gain. 

I fell asleep early last night because I was so exhausted. Mikes mother is having bad sciatica pain. She’s 82 and lives alone and won’t listen to advice. We were going to go over there last night but she didn’t want company. I think she shouldn’t be living alone. I’ve said it many times but she’s not my mother so it is what it is. 

We’re supposed to get more sleet and snow this afternoon and a sharp drop in temperature. The snow isn’t bad it’s the dangerous ice. I just want winter to be over and for spring to get here. After the pool I’ll have to take Bitzi out as much as I can and run to the store before the bad weather starts.

Wednesday, February 3

The waiting is the hardest part

I have resolved to try my best and stay home and avoid crowds and wear my mask and keep my distance and wash my hands a lot more but I’m really sick of this. I feel bad I’m not working but I feel glad too. Is that weird?

I’ve been going to the pool at 6:30 and exercising everyday and I take Bitzi for at least two  walks every day. That’s helping me sleep at night and not get overrun with anxiety and worry. There’s just SO much stuff going on in the world and with family. It will all work itself out eventually. I’ve been stashing away flower seeds for months and dreaming of spring. 

Tuesday, February 2

Be careful what you wish for....

It’s early morning again. I have 6:30 pool slots all week. I’m dressed and drinking my coffee, trying to wake up. Yesterday Mike told me his superiors piled an impossible amount of extra work in endorsement interviews on him and the rest of the staff. They have let so very many people go but they’re still trying to do everything they’ve always done but with a skeleton staff. I’ve never seen him upset like this. He told me he may quit today. If he does we’d be okay just a little careful for a while until we adjust. We have quite a bit of money invested so we should be okay ( hopefully) but this is BIG. He has a Zoom meeting this morning regarding the extra work and I’m sure that shit is going to hit the fan. I was shocked when he told me he may quit. He doesn’t say random crazy shit like I do. 

I don’t like driving to the lodge in the dark to swim but it’s only a mile and I wear my yellow sunglasses that help. I’m not supposed to drive at dark but there’s nobody out at 6:15. By the time I come home it’s light out. Living on the edge.... 

9:05 I cannot believe what a mess this vaccine distribution is. No clue when we’ll actually be able to get it and there’s all sorts of conflicting information regarding various sites and supply of doses. What a clusterfuck. 

In a while I’m driving over to Glen Ellyn to deliver soup to my stepson and his wife. She had a difficult C-section delivery and he’s taking care of her and the new baby. 



I got back from Glen Ellen around noon. I just took the food and dropped it off and left. I didn’t want to intrude. I know how exhausting a baby can be. Mike and I are going over there Sunday to watch the baby for a while so Casey & Jackie can get out of the house for a bit.

Mike didn’t quit his job this morning. I don’t know if he changed his mind or what. 

I’m really mentally exhausted now. 

Sometimes a nice hot bath is the best remedy 

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