Thursday

It’s a beautiful bright sunny winter day. It’s still really cold out there but the bright sunshine definitely helps my mental outlook. I slept pretty well last night and got up a little after 7. I had my coffee and a toasted peanut butter jelly and banana sandwich and took the dog out for a walk up by the main lodge. We were out there about 20 minutes or so. I’ve been reading and doing crossword puzzles this morning. I opened a bedroom window and a sunroom sliding door and aired the house out a bit. It’s good to get some fresh air circulating in the house.  I’m leaning toward going to the lodge shortly to use the fitness equipment, pool and sauna.

Yesterday I went on a bus trip to the Chicago Art Institute.

It was really splendid and I got 3.5 miles in walking around enjoying myself.

I still haven’t heard a peep from my oldest daughter in many months. She is going “no contact” with the family again. She has done this many times to us over the years. Like she is somehow better and superior…….whatever. I feel sorry for her mental state but I am helpless. I’ve reached out countless times and this has been going on (off and on) for years and years. She pops back up whenever she needs something. Whatever. Everybody has their stuff. Some people just have more stuff than others,

I’m waiting on a school district to call me back to resolve a matter. Last August I received a deposit for $420 from the local school district. I have not substituted for them in over 2 entire school years. When I called them they were unaware of the mistake and thanked me and asked that I write them a check to refund the automatic transfer saying they were unable to withdraw it from my account. So I sent them a check and didn’t think another thing about it until last week when I got a W-2 form in the mail for that payment. WTF? So this morning I called two separate numbers for their school district and left messages. So far no one has called back. 

Someone obviously has screwed up. I get really impatient with bullshit like this. I probably had too much coffee this morning…..

Since I’m waiting for the call back I’ll just keep typing and blithering on (lucky you,eh?)

I have started mentally planning for spring and summer. I have ordered some flower seeds for spring planting and have been looking for travel possibilities, looking up locations and accomodations. I always need to have a carrot at the end of the stick to look forward to, especially during February which seems to be the worst time of the year for me. 

Right now I’m leaning toward driving down to see my family this weekend, maybe leaving tomorrow or Saturday. I’ve postponed it a couple times due to my health and the weather. My granddaughter’s birthday present is late (although I sent a couple other things via Amazon when I couldn’t drive down there). I need to see my sisters too. It’s important to me that I show up. My vision isn’t the best so my trips have been getting fewer and far between. You do what you can do and that’s all you can do.

#justkeepswimming

Every day I count my blessings. Every. Single. Day.

I’m getting used to this new iPad keyboard. I also got wrist cushioned riser thingy to put the IPad on toe bring it up a little higher on the kitchen table when I’m typing so that helps. I actually like typing and really haven’t done much at all in years. It’s time to get back in the saddle. I also decided the other day that I’m going to get out my clarinet, flute and baritone once spring hits and start playing again. I haven’t played at all in over a year since we moved last year in January and moved all our crap over here in the dead of winter and then sold our other house and then had a bunch of stuff done to this house and finding places for everything. But I need to start playing again. That’s part of my DNA. I gave my electric piano to my granddaughter Hennessy who I never hear from anymore because her mother is no contacting me…….whatever……I’ve been sending Hennessy things and writing her letters. Evidently her mother is keeping them from her or has brainwashed her so badly she can’t respond. It’s such a sin to have her doing this. I’ve had so much tremendous heartache over this but I just have to resign myself  that you do all you can do. 

Okay I’m tired of waiting around for the school district to call me back regarding their screw up. I’m gathering my stuff and going to the lodge. Working out will help my anxieties over thinking about the “no contact” bullshit situation. Onward and upward!